Today

I toured my city. But this time, I actually really enjoyed myself.

I went with friends, not family, and didn't have an agenda. Except for at one point, when the agenda was: FIND THE GOD DAMNED FOUNTAIN, IT IS TOO GOD DAMNED HOT. We walked through 'the wrong part of town' and then stopped at a 7-11, got our slurpee on, and then trudged forth in the really lovely heat. We made lots of friends, a couple of which were completely nuts and talked to themselves. A few were completely blazed and just gazed at us longingly as we passed. One of them followed us and called "wait! wait!" Obviously we sped up. One really cool dude at the back of the bus was listening to our conversation and kept talking to me about things I was saying. Example: me: (sarcastic) "Wow, That's a pretty awesome park." him: "that there's a dog park. there are people parks, and dog parks. that's a dog park if i know one." me: (smile) "Ha.... ha.... yes."

Between getting completely soaked in the fountain, eating a massive slice of pizza, napping in the shade and the grass, playing HELLA games at GameWorks, and riding way too many buses for my liking, we all survived. And it just kind of made me really glad to be alive and to have such great, genuine friends. And it also made me sunburned. <3

Gosh darnit,

I had another good day. Ugh. Where is all that angst? I miss it so... Actually, I had enough drama and angst and confusion and all that good stuff for a whole month on Friday night. No details, but it was more than mildly stressful.

Maybe this lack of angst comes from the new group of people I'm hanging out with. Or maybe it has something to do with the wisdom I've taken from the group that's leaving me. Side note: looking forward to seeing Jacob and Peter some time in the nearish future. Imma miss those guys. =(

Today, for the first time in my life, I was pushed into a lake/body of water fully clothed. Pushed being a bit of an exaggeration, they very forcibly persuaded me into it. They being my new group. Awesome guys, really. Anyway, it wasn't too much fun. I mean, initially there was the slight thrill of being completely soaked, but I got over that quickly when I realized that I was completely soaked. Yuck.

And then I walked to the bathroom (completely soaked), and all of the Mexican families having their beach BBQs stared at me. I felt rather self conscious.

In non-outing related news:
My mommy is very overprotective. Let's leave it at that.

Damnit, Jacob Wipf

you always make me cry. Example one, whatever it was you wrote in my yearbook had me bawling my eyes out. (Not to worry, Peter, so did yours.) And best little sister you never had? You could write Hallmark cards. AND - I totally thought you should have asked me to prom when you were like, the only one not going. Great minds...

In un-Jacob related news:
Actually not too much to say today.

My driver's ed instructor is a tall skinny dude who talks really fast and makes really long-winded jokes about nothing. And says "yayy" in a really breathy voice like, 20 times in the two hour session. It's hard to explain, but very odd overall. And my mom keeps asking me if I think I'll be able to learn from him, as if I'm going to drop the course because he's a bit odd.

Gah, I'm not making sense today. And I'm also learning waayyyy too much about someone over FB IM. Yikes.

Also- mystery Anonymous commenter - I like you. Whoever you are. <3

EDIT: I'm sitting here, eating some plain lettuce. And It's really, really good. I feel like a bunny. And not the slutty Hugh Hefner kind. Or maybe I do... ;)

Here's something that annoys me:

Ridiculously hot guys who are also ridiculously religious. For example: my younger brother's counselor at church camp. I know, I know, obviously a church camp counselor is going to be crazy religious, but I didn't expect him to bring it up in small talk. (And seriously 9/10 church camp counselors are ridiculously good looking)

It's hard enough to flirt with a college guy who's waaaaaaay out of your league, but when he brings god into it? No, thanks.

But he was still so nice to look at.... They all were, really...

I need to stop having awesome days

or else this blog will be filled with butterflies and smiley faces, and god forbid... Glitter graphics!

But I had another very awesome day with that same group, and it's just making me really happy. Which is weird, because I'm so used to being angsty and depressed and bored.

I was going to make this long and meaningful, but there's a Harry Potter marathon on ABC Family, soooooooooo...

My goal this summer

is a lot different that my goal for the last four summers has been. And if you want to know what THAT goal was, just think about it. I'm a single, emphasis on S I N G L E, teenage girl.

This summer, I want to write a song. And not the really really really crappy christian pop stuff I wrote that one summer when I was in a christian pop band. Yeah, I was. No, I'm not christian. Go figure.

I'm thinking I'll put together some of the stuff I shot at the zoo and post it here, because I don't really find it YouTube worthy. Though I'm sure my subscribers would like to see that I'm not dead. And my aunt still has my web cam. Which she took without asking. Not cool.

Lets talk about days that are amazing,

because I had one.

This post will hopefully be short. And if you haven't read my last monster-of-a-post post, do so, because it is worth reading. ANYHOO,

Today, I did two really awesome things, and two really physically painful things.

POSITIVE:
1. I went to the zoo with my two best friends.
- The zoo on it's own is awesome. Add in your best friends, a video camera and two regular digital cameras, and you've got an all together terrific outing.
- For the first time in a very long time, I just let myself be a fun loving kid. I didn't have anyone to watch out for, I didn't have a plan, I didn't have to do anything if I didn't want to. All I had to do was have fun with my best friends.
- Obviously, when there are numerous bronze animals chilling throughout the zoo, a good about of pictures were taken, in which I must look like an absolute idiot, but I had a great time taking them, who who cares?
- I decided today that my new favorite animal is the three-banded armadillo. SO CUTE! (In the dark, at least. Maybe it's not as cute in daylight...)

2. I went on a picnic party/park outing thing.
- I have to say that the group of people who were at this party were seriously one of the best groups anyone could ever wish to hang out with. They're energetic, entertaining, and genuinely amazing people.
- I got to play hot lava monster for the first time in a long time, and that was a blast. And also very exhausting.
- I waded into the really nasty kind of squishy yellowish river and tried to catch minnows with my bare hands. Felt like Huck Fin or something with my jeans rolled up, wading after minuscule fish. It was awesome.
- Literally fell down laughing and almost rolled down a hill numerous times.
- Stopped caring about what I looked like about half an hour in, and that made it all so much more fun and easier to enjoy.
- Shared a really great muffin at a really cool cafe with two really spectacular guys.
- Played trivial pursuit and felt like a winner even thought I hardly knew any of the answers.

NEGATIVE:
1. Flew out of a kiddie swing.
- I decided to jump off the swing after it had slowed down a bit, and somehow managed to trip over my feet as I landed, and somehow ended up doing a triple somersault, and landing on my face/shoulder.
- For the first time since I was 12 I have a battle wound earned on a playground in the form of a really nice set of scratches and cuts to the upper forearm and elbow.

2. Did something really stupid.
-While searching for something to throw off the tall bridge I was standing on, I spotted a cluster of those helicopter seed things. I decided that those would be cool to throw off.
- After a few failed attempts to reach the cluster, I jumped higher than I have ever jumped before, and got it! Yay me!
- NOT.
- What had before, from afar, appeared to be some kind of fuzzy coating on the seeds turned out to be the plants protection for the seeds from animals.
- My entire hand was covered, base of my palm to fingertips, with sharp, spiny yellow hairs.
- It took two plus hours to remove the majority of these offending hair things, and I am STILL finding them almost FIVE HOURS LATER.
- I hate plants.

But today, the positive almost overwhelmingly outweighed the negative, making this the best day of my summer yet. Hopefully this outing will happen again with this group.

I have a very good feeling it will.