don't drink water

fish have sex in it.
I hate it when people say that. Don't they know that fish don't even have sex. ARGHHHHH. This bothers me.

So today they did another one of those things in my English class. The ones where they have kids from the school get together and give them a grant to make shirts and buy pencils and stuff that say "Hugs not Drugs" and the like. Well I was actually surprised by a few of the people this time. One kid, who I thought I knew pretty well, blew me out of the water by telling the story of his alcoholic father, and how it caused him to turn to alcohol. HE got emotional near the end after he finally said "I hate my dad." and it got even worse when he ended with "I haven't been happy, I don't know how to be happy, but I will be someday." Lets just say, i bawled. And he is one of those kids that is always smiling, always says hi, always has a joke to tell. Now that I know it's an act, I... I don't know. I really can't describe how I feel.

Sometimes on these days, I wish I was a part of that. I wish I was one of those people who have the guts to stand up in front of a class and spill their personal life. I know thats weird, and kind of wrong to want that, but it's just that want to make an effort to help kids in the future know how messed up they can get. But really, I thank god that my family doesn't have any of those kinds of problems. I am so, so, so lucky, and yet I wish I had gone through something that I could use to help people in the future.

Ok, that was pretty deep. Let's lighten it up, shall we?



I must say, that those are some interesting stats. The majority of my viewers are 35-45 year old males. I am also popular with the 0-18 set. I have nothing against 35-45 year old males, except the fact that they are about 20 years older than me, and yeah. You get the picture. Tex flipped out a bit when I showed her.

Also interesting: I have lost popularity in the UK over my year on YouTube. This is sad because I love the UK (as you will know if you have seen my old, old, old videos, where i sported a fake british accent. Oh the good old days...).

In other news: I am prety sure that I will go backpacking through Europe sometime around my college years. Just because I NEED to. Need is the only word that fits my longing want to do it. But this is of corse, if I have enough cash, and my parents aprove. Urgh, cash is not my strong point.

YAY! someone is talking to me on MSN. My life just got a little better.

Chow babe.