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I realized some things today. And it wasn't my usual soul searching, it was just random thought throughout the day adding up.

Lets go from the beginning. My day started with Ben(1107) telling me that I am beautiful. You can imagine it was a good way to start the day. The fact that we are a bazillion miles away makes me sad, but I get over it when I realise he wouldn't be as 'into' (i use the term lightly) me if we knew each other IRL. Sigh.

But I watched a lot of TV today (YAY FITNESS.) and ate a good bunch of candy (FITNESS FTW!)and discovered that I am not as creative as I thought, and that I need to think things through more.

Then I watched Fool's Gold. Which was much better than I expected, and I really liked it. Matthew Mcconaughey has abs on his abs. This prompted my deep thinking.

I am into a certain breed of guys. Namely the tall, skinny artsy kind. The ones who you go "Yeah, if I really needed a prom date, he'd be OK." if you were a normal chick. The ones who have really amazing, original thought and aren't afraid to share them. The ones who will sit there and listen to you bitch for hours without interrupting. The ones I always screw things up with. I am addicted to them. They are (Twilight reference!) my brand of heroine. Today I realised why. I couldn't handle being with someone who was so amazing looking that I would never think myself good enough to be with them.

I guess that's good, right? What type of guys are you into? Do you have a reason, or a gut feeling?

And I think I might work out tomorrow. I have a good feeling about it. YAY!

Today, is the first day, of the rest of my life!

jimmy0010 is really interesting.

But anyways.... Does anyone experience the same phenomenon as me? You get really, really interesting thoughts right as you are about to go to sleep, you are in bed - perfectly comfortable. Well this happens to me all the time. Half of the time I will be slipping away into sleep and I get some thought so important i have to get up, stumble around in my room half blind because I've turned on the light on, looking for a peice of paper to wrtie down my amazingness. And don't get me started on looking for a pen.

But so I experienced that last night, and it was the usual kind of thing I think about. A way to make myself better. And last night I got this plan on how to make this a 'Summer of Healthy Living'. So I wrote down all these ideas, and at 11 pm last night here is what i descided to do today.
1. Wake up
2. Work out (min. 1.5 hours)
3. Shower
4. Eat breakfast (fruit smoothie)
5. Go online, check email etc. (max 1.5 hours)
6. Read outside
7. Walk dog

Well, today so far I have been online for 2 hours, not eaten a thing, and not showered, God forbid worked out. And the dog is unwalked, but the cat has used me as a warm bed for about an hour.

Well, maybe I'll make a video today. Because I haven't in a while. Even though I promised.

SORRY.

And welcome home Charlie? Today, right?

Back.

Montana was epic,life changing, fantastic, amazing, terrific, spectacular, beautiful and exhilarating to name a few. I don't know if I have ever felt more at home. I had never been there before, and I still feel like I've left something really special behind by coming back home to WA.

So here are a bit more details so you don't get lost as I ramble. I was invited by my friend to go with her am her parents to a kind of family reunion in Montana. We stayed with one of her dad's cousins and her family, but we spent most of our time up at the most gorgeous ranch ever.

So we had to drive for about 8 hours to get there. I am one of those people who prefers to just drive and drive and drive, without stopping. But when you are with more that 2 people, you have to stop a few times. But other than that, the trip was pretty smooth.

We got there just about time for dinner, so we dropped off our bags (and i gawked at her GORGEOUS cousin. we are talking 11 out of 10 here. he was like WOW.) and headed to the ranch. I met a bunch of her family, who were all very awesome, and we had some sort of Mexican food. I don't eat cheese, or most dairy for that matter, so the fact that EVERYTHING was smothered with it was not very good. We hung out at the ranch for a while before heading back to the house to go to bed.

The next morning I got a lovely wake up call from their golder retriever Millie. As in she jumped on the bed until I woke up. I was introduced to her other two cousins. We ended up going out to feed (well, he fed while we watched) the animals.

-as you might have guessed, I'm avoiding using names. So we have hot cousin, animal cousin, and other cousin. I know, stupid, but this is MY blog. deal.

The animals were definitely in the top 5 things I loved about the trip. If you have never petted a friendly sheep, you don't get it. But I must say is was very cool.

We headed to the ranch for breakfast and hung out until horse riding time. I rode a horse named Doc, who was forever trying to grab a bite to eat. Very annoying. The only reason I really wanted to ride him was because it had been the horse animal cousin had rode, and I must admit that I am ever so slightly in love with him. It's a long story, but in the end he is just about the perfect guy.

The rest of the trip was a lot of the same, though never boring. Most of the trip I spent trying to catch animal cousin's eye. And when I wasn't doing that, I was having the time of my life just being somewhere where I really felt like I belonged.
Even though I was a family reunion, with a family I know very little about, I felt very welcomed. It was a nice feeling, very different from the one I usually have, of trying to just keep everyone around me from exploding.

When we left yesterday, I felt homesick, but not for my home, but for the ranch and Montana in general. Is the sky so big anywhere else?

(picure is not mine, random google searched for it)
It was just an amazing trip. Now I'm off to research colleges in Montana.

I missed you all.

byebye

I'm off to Montana in a matter of minutes. I am pretty sure that my chances of getting on a computer are slim, so I'm bringing a notebook to write down everything you guys will need to know. AND I'm going set up my Twitter so I can text to it, so if you want a quick Jess fix, check that!
EDIT: or not. Twitter is being stupid. Check anyways, you never know if it'll work last minute.

Spice Girls - Lady is a Vamp. Weird song...

Have fun without me! I'll be back on the 24th!

xo

so more on that story.

SO to finish last night's entry.

We had it all planned out, the bus number, stop and time. But it was wrong. And so we stood at the wrong on for about 10 minutes when we see our bus driving toward another stop. As you can guess, we all sprinted like Olympic runners through the street screaming "WAIT! WAIT!"
I was in front so I was also screaming "GET OUT OF THE WAY!" to people on the sidewalk. We sure must be popular with the locals. We made it and went to Red Robin as planned. I got a burger. It was pretty good.

Anyhoo- mother informed me that we are going to DC over spring break, visiting some relatives and stuff, so that should be interesting. I've never been up to that portion of the states, so that should be cool.

This blog is not very organized (or good), sorry.

I am packing for Montana soon. I have to leave at 7 tomorrow morning and drive for EIGHT HOURS. Ugh. At least I won't be with my family, my friend invited me to come with her and her parents. On Saturday I get to go horseback riding at 10, which will be AWESOME. because I love horses.

So that all, i have to pack and shower and stuff.

school is out. and jessica has left the building. forever.

So today was my last day of school, among other things. As a 9th grader, it meant that we released over 100 baloons into the air with wishes for the future, etc. (and probably will kill over 100 birds) And there was a video of a bucnh of pictures we sent in, baby pictures, kid pictures. It was cool.

And so after they got through with all of the awards and formal stuff, they had all of the teachers go down to say goodbye to us freshmen, and I hugged all of the 'good' teachers. And I was doing just fine until I hugged the Yearbook Editor/mentor who I've worked with all my junior high years and she goes, "You'll do great next year Jessica. You're a good girl, you're a good girl."
I walked away and felt my throat doing that painful thing it does before you start crying, and then my face did that crumpling thing that it does when you start crying. And then I cried. I wasn't going to, but I did.

It felt interesting, because it was very out of charactor for me.

There is a rather long and humerous story about bus stops and red robin that goes along with this, but i am soooo tired. and i have to go shopping and pack for my Montana trip. So i'll leave it at that and tell you more tomorrow.

I am bored

So i was like, "Hmmm, I'll just post another blog." Because I just read Chalie's blog, so I'm inspired. =]

So right now, I am uploading video from the camera a borrowed from my aunts. That was spring break. So anyone who will eventually know me IRL, or already does, take that as a warning. I am notorious for not returning things.

Its not that I am trying to steal them, I just forget about the fact they aren't mine. Seriously, I bet it's a common thing. One exception, the blue shirt i stole from my friend Kelsey. That just looks really good on me and she never wore it, so I just never gave it back. ;)

I am so bored right now, you have no clue. I've seen this tape so many times i know every minute of it. For all of the hype, San Fran wasn't super amazing. Then again we were pretty much in the touristy areas the whole time.

I'm listening to my iTunes on shuffle, and Hilary Duff's 'Haters' came on. She obviously doesn't have to deal with haters, because she wouldn't be shouting it that happily if she did. I only have one real hater, and they only comment my 50 Things video like, once a month. And all of that is appearance based, so WHATEV.

I went to Goodwill with my mom and brother, because he wanted to weare a suit for his 6th grade graduation, and the lady at the drug store told my mom that the one downtown has good stuff. So we went, and while they shopped for suits, i wandered around and went through the womens shirts. People have such bad taste, seriously, why would anyone buy half of the stuff there.

And looking around at the people who were shopping there, I realised I am a pretty high class person. On another note, I very nearly fell in love with a big old trunk there. Not like the nose of an elephant, but one you store things in. I was too afraid to look inside of it, and it was on it's side, but it was very Harry Potter. Only it was blue, so it was very Ravenclaw.

I ended up in the book section, which was a jackpot for me, because I am in love with Debbie Macomber's Christmas romantic comedies, but I hadn't seen any of her other stuff. I found THREE of her books there, so I was happy. Along with Bridget Jones's Diary, which I have been interested in for a while.

The brother and I talked mom into letting us buy Fable: The Lost Chapters, because it was rated M, and we're both under 17. And mother is God when it comes to video games. But it was only 6 bucks AND it looked quite unopened, and not resealed. So again, jackpot.

As I was leaving, I commented to my mom that, if I wasn't IN a Goodwill, I would be embarrassed about shopping there, but because I was IN one, it wasn't too bad. Because everyone else was shopping there too.

Oh, and on the way out, a woman in a long purple dress with black and purple hair and black lipstick walked by. And mom and I both glanced at her as we walked out and got into the car. We all got in and buckled our seat belts, and mom and I both go, "That wasn't a woman." and my brother goes "WHAT?!" Being only 12 gives him the right.

And she (he) wasn't. How interesting.

Finally, one tape uploaded, 2 to go.

Wow, that was a long one.

it's been a while

But Ive been super busy. But after the weekend, I only have THREE DAYS OF SCHOOL LEFT! And the only teachers doing anything remotely educational are science and math. Math gave us a worksheet and we are dissecting sheep eyes on Monday for science. Fun stuff...

The freshman party was last night, and i wore heels, so my feel hurt like hell. But I have to say I looked pretty good in my dress. It was almost sad though, realizing that it's the end of something. But then they turned on the chocolate fountain, and all was well again. Editing a video as I type, so expect something new soon!

OH, and...
My presentation went really well, except when i tried to be funny and they all took a second too long to figure it out. I was asking for questions about the presentation, the class, anything so I go "You can ask ANYTHING ! How tall am I? I'm 5' 8"." No one got it. The entire class went, "Wait, what?" Oops.
But the teacher I presented for (we present to random classes) stopped me as I was leaving and goes "Jessica, you were the star of that group. You were just amazing." I love that guy. =]

Thursdays

are just filler days. People are tired and pissed off and just want a Friday, so they were like , 'UH, no. add another day, make them suffer.'
Idiots.

Lets talk about sex.
Well, not sex, but the sex sound game. You know, where you poke some one's stomach and whatever they do or say is their sex sound? Well I'm sure I'll be real popular in the sack with my 'WTF?!'

BIG presentation tomorrow. like BIG BIG. It;s a graduation requirement, which means I can't accidentally sleep in or anything. Ah well, I'll do alright.
Well, better than my group anyways.

Short again. I'm busy, deal.
x

OH MY GOODNESS.

Sorry about the all caps shouty title, I'm just excited. and this is going to be short, so sorry in advance.

I just got the most epic video idea I've ever gotten, and i have to act on it, which means I'll be spending the night with Celtx (scripting software, i luv it) and a glass of chocolate milk. And I might need some help, but I'm not 100 percent sure yet. I'll get back to you.

Oh I am just too cool.

AND, Charlie (with a C).
You are awesome. =]

ARGHH it's monday.

I posted a new video over the weekend. IT wasn't the usually stuff I do. Not that I have anything 'usual'. I'm always going between styles and settings and ideas and accents. UGH I am so tired of You Tube right now.

No I'm not, I'm just tired in general. I am so ready for summer break. So, so, so ready. And I have tons of plans, and it is going to be awesome. And While I am on the topic of You Tube, my viewers have changed slightly since the last post. 35-45 year old males are still my top viewers, but it is now 32% female to 68% male. YES, the women of you tube love me again!

So I'm heading off to high school next year, which will be exciting and crazy and stressful etc. And to finish my school year their is a Freshman party of sorts. And it's semi formal which means a dress. Yikes. As you might have guessed from my jeans and t-shirts wardrobe, dresses are not really my thing. Yikes again.

AND I have to bring up my french grade before the year is up. Anyone fluent and willing to help me out?

I think I'll work on some video ideas and do my homework... Scrips always seem so embarrassing to me...

Don't ask.

ARGHHH.